I had mentioned it briefly earlier that I have struggled
with comparing myself with others on the team and wanting to be more like them.
This took a number of forms for me personally. Sometimes it meant that I wish I
had better answers (and even questions) when sharing my faith with students on campus. Other times I
want to be more extroverted like other members of the team, because
oftentimes I have found myself having alone time while others are upstairs spending time together. It has been difficult for me to find a balance since I
often feel guilty for not pouring into the community every moment of every day.
One morning this past week when I was reading Galatians and
this truth hit me:
“Carry each other’s burdens, and in this way you will
fulfill the law of Christ. If anyone thinks he is something when he is nothing,
he deceives himself. Each one should test his own actions. Then he can take
pride in himself, without comparing himself to somebody else, for each one
should carry his own load” ~ Galatians 6:2-5
There is a lot to be gleaned from this passage, but it was
exactly what I needed to hear in light of what I was struggling with. Community
is extremely, extremely important. I should know that after living in a house
with 16 other individuals for 3 weeks now. And as a community we are called to
help each other along through our weakness, messiness and insecurities.
However, ultimately each one of us can take pride in the
person that God has made us. I do not need to compare myself to somebody else!
It seems like such an obvious conclusion and yet recently it has been hard for
me to acknowledge.
It is a humbling fact that the God of the entire universe
will meet me where I’m at. He will make my yoke light, because I am free from
any insecurities. My relationship is personal, just between Him and me. He has
blessed me with the gifts He has, and He loves me for who I am. I want to find
hope in that not only for the rest of project, but the rest of my life. All the
glory be His.
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