Discovered Thoughts from a Year Ago

• I really appreciate Micah being w/ me when I first heard the news. It was such a shock though I had a sneaking suspicion. I didn't need someone to talk to me. Just the fact that he was there in my grief was enough.
• Syd and Amy really showed me compassion through their words and their hugs. David and Sam did not have to say anything for me to merely appreciate them. Having Micah pray over me was a major comfort b/c he acknowledged the main thing that was nagging at me.
• During the evening I realized that I was more concerned to clinging to the Lord and acknowledging who He is, I guess that is good.
• Although Joe did not know much I think Syd texted everyone. Just to have tim to talk to and listen was nice.
• Jess also comforted me and spoke truth into my life in light of scripture as well as showing me physical touch.
• Meghan did not have to say much but just to have her physical touch was comforting.
• I appreciated the hugs from Carina + Bella
• My mind was easily distracted the first days.
• At times I felt numb to the pain though since I didn't want to accept it
• A lot of people like Jess, Syd, Carina, David, Sam, Micah, and Meghan have checked in on me
• It was comforting to talk w/ J-nar, Shun, and Adam but I would still like to hear from more.
• I hope I can minister to people through this situation
• In one sense I don't want to feel guilty for grieving but at some point I need to move on.
• I wish that people keep checking in w/ me b/c I think I will feel this way the rest of the trip.
• I am thankful that the Lord has cleared my mind talking to students. Team times and drives are still hard